To regain ourselves,D1 letter
Yesterday felt like movie scene, we followed our impulse.
Today is another extraordinary day, we kept our promise.
From today on, to regain ourselves back.
Yet part of life is still related to you so closely, maybe out of habit.
Really love the idea of writing letters, words in lines may never come out of mouth.
But I have to admit, this letter is more for myself, for my future self, for the nostalgic me.
I had a really long day, not smooth working, not comfortable stomach.
Yet somehow I felt grounded, life is a climb, I prefer such challenges to cosy life.
Blind optimism gave me strength to move forward, the point is I am still on track.
It might takes time before I could be truly satisfied, or maybe never, always in the pursuit to be better.
But the view along the journey is great, with you, with little things that make life great.
I thought about the question that does it have to be you? Not so sure
But every time when I think of your answers to my questions,
The way you look at me, hug me, kiss me.
The part of yourself with your music, your book, your words, your worlds of photo,
Your way with life.
The imagined life of you and me, sharing things, witnessing progress of each other,
Appreciating and discovering life.
I have grown a little bit more certainty that maybe it has to be you, who I want to spend
The blossom of youth with, the rest of my life with, though that's now only in my imagination,but would like to see how it turns out by time.
About today, things really worth remembering and would like to share
A. I read a letter from Zuck Berger -the founder of Facebook to his new born daughter Max,
He and his wife donated 99percent of their share for two purposes：
To make this world a better one for Max to grow up in.
To advance equalty
Those who can make a difference to the world make grand gesture to celebrate，but also out of pure love.
All of a sudden， I was thinking if we end up being life partners，what would We say to our children.
I wish We could also be parents that our children are proud of，are happy with，are lucky to have.
I also want to write a long letter to my children，for him or her to read later how we made our first wish about them.
B. I read some info about photography which i enjoyed reading and was thinking about sharing it to you，while I didn’t，since I promised that i will leave you alone，let's stay isolated for a while.
I think now for work, also for kind of my interest, I will begin to develop a good habit to absorb more about photography field, I was grinning at the thought of learning from you sometimes, lying on your leg, reading these things and ask you questions occasionally and be answered professionally. Love the idea of admiring my boyfriend and improving myself at the same time.
C. About my work, my post on Facebook went almost viral and got nearly about 1000likes within one day, a small sense of achievement, yet much aware there is still a long way to go, but kind of cheered me up and gave me some motivation to move forward. I came to realize it really takes time and perseverance to witness some milestones. But I am less worried, less in fear, as you said, the current situation is the only possibility left there, since we made decision, stick to it, even it didn't ended up the way we wanted, we might gained something else in the end. To enjoy ourselves in the process, to lead a fulfilling life. And I brought up with some creative thoughts, always in the hope of making a difference to prove myself, maybe there are chances, I gotta seize the opportunity, or maybe just consider them as practices, experiences for me to be better, more seasonal, more professional.
D.On my way home, I was accompanied by music, thinking about you for a while, but then thought to myself, in my life, there would certainly be days when you are not around, by myself, I should also have a life, to always be myself, lead the life I want, to discover something new so we could have more to share. And want to prove to you I am not that fragile , so that I wouldn't be a burden for you, so that we could always reminds ourselves the trick about maintaining our relationship: to complete each other without losing ourselves.
E. I found your account on 网易云 music and created a personal collections list called : to feel the same.
But I strongly believe, we may still feel different even with the same music, but that's not the point, that is also one way of missing you and to feel at least a part of what it was like when you're listening to the song. You know, the music really compose, communicate, and sends a message of who you are.The songs around my ear tonight just reminds me another reason to like you, to like the peace, the world in which we understand the part others may not get, our private time.
Well, no matter how late it is, don't forget to say Good night ! As I got used to it.
And this time I won't take the initiative.
About to end my writing, listening to the soft music from your list, the one beside the lake.
Imaging about the scene we sit next to each other, leaning on your shoulder, silently, close my eyes,
You dropped a soft kiss on my lips.
Goodnight
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